She was so different. (story)

BITTER's SOMETHING SOMETHING:))

I want to tell you something about the side of me which might make you feel ODD.
Well, This might change your mind, and would make you step-out from this site,and never be friends with me. LOL that's dramatic. I'm just kidding. well, hope it won't happen. :))

Sarcastically speaking..
I'm not the type of person who easily gets along with anyone. I'm not the type of person who cares A LOT to ANYONE,Because I know they won't take it back seriously at all.I only care to those people who manage to take me as I AM. And speaking of me,I tend be a sadist sometimes,because that's what I am. A masochist at other times.I don't mind the people who hates me, Because they can't accept the fact that I'm WINNING over them. I don't easily GIVE UP at something that I really want and really desire for. I used to be over confident at times. I'm not that GIRLY actually.I'm not a stubborn PRINCESS who focuses on their own fern most beauty.err!.I used to act somewhat weird often. But,I manage to be sweet to others well,if they deserve my sweetness,i can be brutally sweet also if i adore them much. I tend to act immature sometimes in order to get their mood at the right place. I always do stupid stuffs just to make them smile. As you can see, I would do everything just to see these people around me smiling. Isn't it hilarious?!. ME+STUPIDITY=SMILES. Actually, there would come a time that i get tired of these stupid shits. know why?, Hah! what the hell!, they're laughing at me because i looked like a freaking stupid clown already! I know you're thinking in a way like this, "then why are you doing such a foolish thing?!?". Well, Duh!? I love seeing they're smiles!, It's like Happiness is dancing around me. Even thought,They can't see mine at all. I mean, my real true smile. At least they can see how much I want them to be happy. If you want to see my true smile. I'll just let you know.

I'm shy but not anymore, slowly I'm opening the barriers that kept me tangled along with the sorrows of my life. I'm a loner sometimes. I feel vulnerable at some things sometimes. I love the darkness more than the light. I want to be alone most of the time. Because, being alone sometimes opens my eyes and see my real self. Odd isn't it?. But now, I think that the best way to see your real self is to be with you're friends or families,they can help you understand what you've been looking for. ain't that sweet.

I easily FALL but that's BEFORE. I already learned, I love loving someone but it hurts to fall for someone whom you aren't really sure if he loves you back dearly and seriously. I know it's not a big deal,but for me it is. That's why before, I'm avoiding the topic about love,because I think I don't deserve that kind of conversation. I'm not playing hard to get. not because I'm scared to be hurt like what most girls say. well, Because it will test and prove how that person really loves you and really desires to own your heart. I want him to wait. And if he can't stand to wait, then I guess he's not it. Why do I want him to wait?. well,Duh again!? WAITING makes the love so strong,more than before,more than now, and much more better for next. And if you can't agree with that, Well,what you're feeling isn't probably love at all. I'm not affected with those honey tongues. Because they don't really mean it and honestly it didn't came from their heart at all. I love sweet persons. But i won't fall for that anymore,like yeah!. there were a lot of sweet persons in this world. I could possibly fall to the person who accepts me as me,from WHO AM I and WHAT AM I.The very most treasured thing for me is the so called LOYALTY. I wouldn't explain why anymore, because I want you to think all about it on your own. I adore fairy tales,But I won't believe on it when it sticks to reality. LOL. All the Disney Princess ended up with only one Prince. Prince Charming!. LOL!. *kills that prince*

The last thing that I would NEVER be like..well,I have my own life which is some kind of miserable at times. I go on my own way. I won't and never be OBSESSED at something. Being obsessed might hurt you like hell. well, base from my experiences. LOL. Thought I might look weak in some angles. I got my source of strength deep inside of my heart. I won't cry anymore, because tears won't do anything at all. What!?. It will just spill out while your heart is screaming for comfort,seeking for justice,waiting for love. LOL. Just take a deep breathe and scream!. nyaha!. WEIRDO. :))