Sick and Tired.

This day is soooo weird and sooo PAINFUL!. I went out with some friends all day. We went to have some fun. Go malling, watch movies, play arcades. nyaha!. and whoa!. suddenly my friend got a call so they went home already. that's weird i thought they're free today. So there, I just went alone. Then suddenly my phone rung. It was him calling. argggh!.

So i answered it with a lame sound. "what ?!?!." he answered "oh hey!,hmm. how are you?" i answered him "i'm good, why'd you call?!?you're like wasting my time." so there I'd hanged up.

I went to a ice cream shop. I sat there then suddenly the waitress offered a choco fudge sundae.
I asked her "wait, i didn't order this miss."
the waitress said that it's a free service. WHOA!. I guess today is my lucky day. I ate the ice cream thank the waitress and continued my day.

I went to buy a CD. then someone came and offered a free CD. another WHOA!.
Is this a free day?!?!. so there, i thank him a lot and went away. I stroll around the mall. then It was almost evening already. lol. I forgot which way should i go. I was so nervous, i'm lost. lol silly me. I sat beside the water fountain. I love it so much!.

then suddenly he called again!. I answered "what now?!!?" he said "oh nothing, just want to ask how was your day?" then he laughed. he's weird,so i said to him "hell!. don't crash my free day!. " then he giggled and said "haha!. hey try to turn around and walk back." that's odd. so i answered him "why would i?. my legs hurts already!." then he still insist me to do it.

So there, I turned around and walked back. when I faced in front. OH MY GAAAAWD!. It was him!. he was holding his phone!. SO HE WAS STALKING ME ALL THE TIME!. I gave him a pouted face. and asked..
"what the hell is your problem??!. are you stalking me all the time?!?!"..
he smiled and said "haha!. i guess so?!?!.haha!."
I'd hit him,poke him, lol.
i told him "why did you do that?!?you're such a jerk. haha!."
I'd teased him. He just smiled. he asked "Need a ride home??". My eyes went big. Well, since my legs hurts already, and I'm kinda tired. I'd take a ride with him. While we're on the way, I was so silent.
He smirked. "So, is the free sundae ice cream taste great?!"
I was socked and asked
"How'd you know about that?!?!.". he just smiled.
and asked again "Did you like the free CD??"..
I almost dropped my jaw. I'd hit him. and said "hey!.
You're seriously freaking me out!."..
so he said "haha!. you won't have any of those free stuffs if I wasn't there."..
OH GOD!. I said "wait!. Did you pay all of those stuffs?!?!." i was hitting him again.
then he manage to tell all. he said "alright, well, I'd asked the waitress to give you a sundae and tell you that it's a free service,but the truth is I've payed it for you. and the CD, I asked that man to hand the CD to you."..

I was like shocked,I'd stopped hitting him and faced in the window. He asked "did you like it?!". I just shook my head. and said "yes,thank you" in a low voice. He just smiled.

What's up with him?!He's giving me goosebumps!.So there, we've reached my house i'd open the door, but before i go,I gave him a scary look. and said "you're weird" he said "thanks!" and then smiled.

And now, he sent me a message. "Did I do a sweet job!?!?. I've been planning to do that when I court her.(his neighbor)well,you're reaction wasn't quite bad. thanks and good night!.". After reading that, I dropped my phone. I was so speechless. He wasn't serious all this time. he was just practicing all this time. And the worst thing about it. IT HURTS!. IT HURTS SO MUCH!. why am I feeling that way?!?!. Why am I hurt?!?!. Maybe I haven't fully moved on. Honestly, I was happy when he said that It was Him who did all those sweet jobs. and now I really hate it!. I want to curse him.

Love is like hell when you fall too much. At first he'll love you no matter what happens. but slowly it will fade away. There will never be a number 1 anymore.

당신이 잘못된~..

Err!. for Pete's sake!. I'm not backstabbing you. and I'm not minding it anymore. I can't because I've treated you as a real sister already. and it's very painful for me to do so, to go away from you. I'm just CONFUSED, really confused!.

You're mad, really mad. I can feel it. Don't let your nerves put through first. I just want to know how it went like that. I don't want any FIGHTS. I don't want MISUNDERSTANDINGS. I just want to know HOW did it happen, that you're 2.

You know I can't stand being confused that long. I'm sorry if I'd hurt you because of my confusions. Okay, you can stay away from me if you want to. I know you're doing it already.


"미안해 언니, 난 널 사랑해~..=u="

(meoooow~)^3^

"I'D TOOK ONE STEP AWAY,BUT I FOUND MYSELF COMING BACK TO YOU MY ONE AND ONLY YOU."

She was so different. (story)

BITTER's SOMETHING SOMETHING:))

I want to tell you something about the side of me which might make you feel ODD.
Well, This might change your mind, and would make you step-out from this site,and never be friends with me. LOL that's dramatic. I'm just kidding. well, hope it won't happen. :))

Sarcastically speaking..
I'm not the type of person who easily gets along with anyone. I'm not the type of person who cares A LOT to ANYONE,Because I know they won't take it back seriously at all.I only care to those people who manage to take me as I AM. And speaking of me,I tend be a sadist sometimes,because that's what I am. A masochist at other times.I don't mind the people who hates me, Because they can't accept the fact that I'm WINNING over them. I don't easily GIVE UP at something that I really want and really desire for. I used to be over confident at times. I'm not that GIRLY actually.I'm not a stubborn PRINCESS who focuses on their own fern most beauty.err!.I used to act somewhat weird often. But,I manage to be sweet to others well,if they deserve my sweetness,i can be brutally sweet also if i adore them much. I tend to act immature sometimes in order to get their mood at the right place. I always do stupid stuffs just to make them smile. As you can see, I would do everything just to see these people around me smiling. Isn't it hilarious?!. ME+STUPIDITY=SMILES. Actually, there would come a time that i get tired of these stupid shits. know why?, Hah! what the hell!, they're laughing at me because i looked like a freaking stupid clown already! I know you're thinking in a way like this, "then why are you doing such a foolish thing?!?". Well, Duh!? I love seeing they're smiles!, It's like Happiness is dancing around me. Even thought,They can't see mine at all. I mean, my real true smile. At least they can see how much I want them to be happy. If you want to see my true smile. I'll just let you know.

I'm shy but not anymore, slowly I'm opening the barriers that kept me tangled along with the sorrows of my life. I'm a loner sometimes. I feel vulnerable at some things sometimes. I love the darkness more than the light. I want to be alone most of the time. Because, being alone sometimes opens my eyes and see my real self. Odd isn't it?. But now, I think that the best way to see your real self is to be with you're friends or families,they can help you understand what you've been looking for. ain't that sweet.

I easily FALL but that's BEFORE. I already learned, I love loving someone but it hurts to fall for someone whom you aren't really sure if he loves you back dearly and seriously. I know it's not a big deal,but for me it is. That's why before, I'm avoiding the topic about love,because I think I don't deserve that kind of conversation. I'm not playing hard to get. not because I'm scared to be hurt like what most girls say. well, Because it will test and prove how that person really loves you and really desires to own your heart. I want him to wait. And if he can't stand to wait, then I guess he's not it. Why do I want him to wait?. well,Duh again!? WAITING makes the love so strong,more than before,more than now, and much more better for next. And if you can't agree with that, Well,what you're feeling isn't probably love at all. I'm not affected with those honey tongues. Because they don't really mean it and honestly it didn't came from their heart at all. I love sweet persons. But i won't fall for that anymore,like yeah!. there were a lot of sweet persons in this world. I could possibly fall to the person who accepts me as me,from WHO AM I and WHAT AM I.The very most treasured thing for me is the so called LOYALTY. I wouldn't explain why anymore, because I want you to think all about it on your own. I adore fairy tales,But I won't believe on it when it sticks to reality. LOL. All the Disney Princess ended up with only one Prince. Prince Charming!. LOL!. *kills that prince*

The last thing that I would NEVER be like..well,I have my own life which is some kind of miserable at times. I go on my own way. I won't and never be OBSESSED at something. Being obsessed might hurt you like hell. well, base from my experiences. LOL. Thought I might look weak in some angles. I got my source of strength deep inside of my heart. I won't cry anymore, because tears won't do anything at all. What!?. It will just spill out while your heart is screaming for comfort,seeking for justice,waiting for love. LOL. Just take a deep breathe and scream!. nyaha!. WEIRDO. :))

NO DRAMAS ALRIGHT? ÜÜÜ

HEY!.
C'mon why don't we start it all over again.
Like the first time you've dropped your heart,
and the first time I've caught it up.
I may sound crazy,but it's the best way.

I love you and you love me,
Hold my hand and i'll hold yours.
Let's go around the circle of forever.
Hold me tight, i won't let go.
I love you from head to toe.

You're different from them.
You give me such strength.
I won't find someone else like you.
Even if i stepped out of the blue.

You've chained my heart and threw the keys.
You've cross the barrier and kissed my cheeks.
You killed my boys out of the breeze.
You blush so red every time i tease.
And that made me want you more and more.

I don't want you to be sad.
Because that will make me mad.
I want you to smile always.
As bright as the sun's rays.
I love you more than anything else.
And that will make so much sense.

I wish you're tied with me forever.
I wish our love was strong like forever.
I wouldn't mind the things that will bother.
Because F-O-R-E-V-E-R spells Y-O-U and M-E.